Pop of light: I swing the porch door open, startling a coiled snake
that pitches forward beneath black fields and desert stars.
50 years ago, I saw a farm dog kill a rat snake
as it wound beneath lawn chairs under the willow,
dusk fallen; winks of stars pushed day away. Mom screamed;
the dog lunged, sank teeth into the snake’s checkered skin,
and raised and swung it like a 6-foot bat,
slamming it down, a jellied baton, again and again,
to hard summer ground, until it was dead.
I’ll never forget the dog’s frenzy
as the humans grasped their metal chairs, stunned.
Tonight: recalling a boy I loved, I step into the stars—
once he read me Lawrence’s The Snake. I admired
the creature from “the dark door of the secret earth.”
Later, when he dismissed me,
he said “you have too much soul”
and again tonight, I am back in 3rd grade
catching a green garter like I was playing jacks,
swift grab behind its head—it slipped my hands,
the teacher swept
its chartreuse loveliness out the door, smacked
my palm with a ruler for my secret earth wildness—
and again, tonight, I stand in the open door, arms
stretched wide, under Tucson’s sky haunted by haloed stars—
the snake disappears into the night
and summons underworlds—
my heart breaks into a thousand vessels of light, my tongue
darts vibrating words, possessed by too much soul.